July 9th, 2009
|09:24 pm - one track mind|
Long time no see.
I usually forget that this exists.
Reminds me of High School.
Maybe that's why I stay away? Hah.
Went out dancing on Friday night. AMAZING!
Matty played Born to Run, and I pretty much lost my shit.
Shannon and I got all sweaty on the dance floor.
Some guy in a white T-Shirt told me I was his fave dancer.
The we went to Zak's and ate yummy food at 2am.
Good times all around.
This weekend should be a lot of fun.
BBQ tomorrow, something Saturday, BBQ Sunday.
If only I could get my energy back.
Anemia isn't as fun as it sounds. Haha.
Well that's it for me.
I have some work to do.
First unofficial band meeting/practice tomorrow.
Gotta be in tip top condition.
xox. love and other indoor(outdoor?) sports.
Current Mood: nerdy
Current Music: Girl Talk
April 20th, 2009
|09:31 pm - dino buddies|
Booked camping last night, which means I have something awesome to look forward to!!
This makes for one happy camper ;)
Weekend was super spectacular!
Lyns came down and we drank and watched Degrassi Junior High and talked about penises.
What a gem.
xox. looking for fun.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: David Bowie - Rebel Rebel
April 8th, 2009
|04:56 pm - Dr. Pepper|
I am drinking Dr. Pepper right now, and I am writing to say how much I love it!
I haven't had a DP in AGES, so when I saw one today, I just couldn't resist.
And let me tell you... BEST DECISION EVER!
I actually can't believe how good it is! I'm happily surprised.
I'm also wearing DP lipsmackers :)
Hmmmmm other than that, meh. Same old I suppose.
Last weekend I saw Soul Jazz Orchestra. They were awesome!
A great dance fest, and then a hilarious evening with the ladies in Jay's bed.... hah.
You know when you like a band forever, and then you finally get to see them?
Weakerthans. Total disapointment.
Or maybe it's the fact that I liked them in High School, and now that's what I associate them with.
Either way, they were boring.
Waste of 25 bux.
At least I got to see Pete!
Now New Kids, there's a different story.... SWOON!
xox. i'm hanging tough.
Current Music: Joy Division
April 3rd, 2009
I don't. Hardly.
I used to love checking to see if my friends updated or posted pictures.... Now with Facebook, the excitement is gone.
Is anyone else kinds sick of Facebook?
It's too "stalker in training" and that freaks me out a little.
At least with LJ you have to be a little more creative with your posts. AKA make a post! Instead of lurking.
Shucks and sighs.
So what's new... Not a whole lot.
Still working at the pharmacy, which is proving to be both fun and annoying.
I love most of the people I work with, but am annoyed with the elderly and the sick.
At least I get to be in the actual pharmacy now, which breaks up the usual routine. A welcome change.
I was thinking of going back to school in September, but then realized that I really don't want to. I'm content working full time, making decent money, and not having to worry about papers, due dates or tuition bills.
I think I'll stick to it a bit longer, until I snap at an old lady and they fire me, or give out the wrong medication and kill someone... either or. :)
Random note.... Maddy is really cute. How cute? This cute.
xox. and i'm out.
May 27th, 2008
|09:38 pm - twizzlers & laundry|
Summer is officially in full swing, and somehow I'm not feeling it.
I think the combination of unsatisfactory weather days and working non stop has something to do with it.
My plan for the summer was to work only a few days a week, and spend the rest of my time being awesome and exploring the city.
Well as I have learned time and time again, things never work out the way you want them too.
This is fine. I will make up for it in 8 weeks, with the most extensive sightseeing and beach laying I can muster!
I can't believe that in only 8 weeks I will be in Italy, once again. This makes me swoon!
So yesterday at work proved to me why I need to get out of there!
I was so scared to accept a new job and move on because I was so comfortable.
But now i realize that this job is TOO comfortable, and there is no excitement, no fun, no challenge, no future.
I am sick of the people, the work, the drama, the shit that goes on.
It is definetly time to move on and move forward.
I am really looking forward to my meeting with Peter. I figure that I'll take the job and try it out for a year.
What's a year? I'll be getting experience, and if I don't like it, I'll know for sure. I won't be able to shit on myself for not going after something and not trying it.
So bring it on! I am looking forward to this A LOT! I NEED a change. It's at the point, that if I have to stay at my job for longer than the 21st of July, I will murder someone. And that is not a good thing. Hahah.
I will continue working for peanuts and continue to go out 3 days a week with the people I love, because this summer is mine!
I am not going to let it slip away from me. And so far, Pam and I have managed to have a little too much fun. ;)
Gotta love it.
xox. i'm in the mood.
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Rush - In the mood
May 17th, 2008
|12:01 pm - let's do some living after we die|
Love The Rolling Stones.
Wild Horses is going to be my death song.
This does not creep me out because it's so beautiful.
Hangovers are the worst.
The stomach pains and headaches.
Not cool. But it was totally worth it last night.
You know how sometimes you get drunk and end up doing something or saying something that you know you're going to regret the next day, but at the moment it seems like the right thing to do?
Why does alcohol do that??
They should make a drink that doesn't make you super horny and frisky. Hahah.
But when I woke up this morning, I was happy.
I wasn't kicking myself in the ass or beating myself up for my stupidities last night.
I actually ended up laughing. A lot.
Even with certain news this morning, I'm still laughing.
I think this speaks volume of how much I've grown.
I can laugh at my shinanigans and not feel bad.
I'm so over that shit, that now everything seems funny and good.
I can't take things seriously anymore because that takes too much effort.
It drains me of energy and life.
I become depressed and discouraged that things aren't working out the way I want them to.
Now, I can accept that things hardly ever go the way you want them to.
I'm not hung up on love anymore.
They say after you're first real heartbreak things get a lot easier.
And now I believe it. They also say that in a lifetime, your heart will get broken half a dozen times.
Before, this would have upset me a great deal.
Not so much anymore. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right? Cliche, but oh well.
We have to live with dissapointment, because it will always be there in some form or another.
The key is to accept it.
I don't what I've done, but something has changed. A good change that has liberated me.
I'm calm and collected. I still have moments of weakness, but they pass with relative ease, and it's easy to move on after.
I'm at a really good place in my life.
I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have are wonderful.
I couldn't imagine my life without them.
Relationships are all relative. And that's all I need.
This is getting really long. I could prolly go on for another page or two, but I think this will suffice.
Chin up, cheer up. It's that easy.
xox. in love with love.
Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Supertramp - Goodbye Stranger
May 14th, 2008
|02:25 pm - guilty of being awesome|
Colin James is my little guilty pleasure. Haha.
I know he's kind of lame, but there is always great potential for sing-alongs and dancing.
In my book, that is always a good thing.
I am finally starting to get over my nasty little cold / flu. There is nothing more annoying than being sick, especially in the summer.
My new bed arrived last night, and let me tell you, it is heaven!
I have never had such a wonderful sleep before.
I got the kind with memory foam. No joke, AMAZING!
I am finding pleasure in all the small things these days. My new mattress, a new set of colorful pens, the smell of laundry hanging outside... all the things you kinda forget about.
My new view on life and love is proving to be one of the easiest things to do. Keeping everything simple used to seem so hard to do because we always made it complicated. But i'm so sick of the complex that I'm just kindof ignoring it.
My new philosophy is a mix of existentialism and teachings from Phillippe Gaulier. Even though I have no interest in acting or theatre, his teachings can be applied in everyday life, and I am finding his little bits of wisdom greatly appreciated.
Life is an absured place. Always. Accept it and live your life with honesty, regardless of what happens. It's ok to be sad and angry, but there is no dignity in selling your pain.
So this is my new philisophy, and so far it's been working really well. I've been doing lots of reading on existentialism, and it really seems to fit my lifestyle.
Time to dress and be semi-productive.
xox. it's a good thing.
Current Mood: nerdy
May 9th, 2008
|10:10 pm - love hard|
Wow. Where does the time go??
I always forget about LJ, but I'm going to bring it back. Haha.
I GRADUATED COLLEGE!!!!
Yes my dear friends, I am officially a college graduate with an entire summer ahead of me. I am beyond excited, and beyond proud of myself. I knew I could do it, but with the failure of Uni always in the back of my head, I had my doubts. Oh well, doesn't matter know, because I am FREE!
I feel an incredible weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I can finally breathe.
Well almost. I came down with a nasty cold that is blocking my nasal cavites with mucus. Hahaha. So close.
I spent and amazing week in Toronto with Holly, and it was absolutly incredible. There is nothing like getting away, and taking some time for you.
The time went by without notice, and I let the world go on without me.
Nothing is as beautiful than the lack of time.
I hope everyone else is enjoying their days, and letting the sun bring a little warmth into your hearts.
My black heart isn't so black anymore, and it feels wonderful.
xox. love, and other indoor sports.
Current Mood: groggy
November 12th, 2007
|12:12 am - rings and things|
I bought two new rings, and i really love them. Instead of clothes, i but rings.
I'm stoaked on Christmas vacation. Three weeks of food and family and no school. Nothing wrong with that.
Three weeks left in this semester, and I couldn't be happier. I'm really looking forward to getting all this out of the way, and ringing in the new year free of stress from school. Ready to start my final semester of post-secondary.
I was thinking about taking the Intro to Trades program in a couple of years, once I've felt out my Travel stuff.
The idea of working with my hands is really appealing...
So professional masturbater, here i come. Haha.
Hope everyone can see the silver lining in this season of grey skies and short days.
xox. getter done.
November 4th, 2007
|07:50 pm - talking sausages|
Wow. I miss the LJ. Something about it. Good times.
Things are going pretty good over here. School and work are taking up 95% of my time these days. Last week was a killer, and this week is going to be equally as draining, but whatevs. I napped allll day today is preparation for the coming work week.
I guess things are never as bad as they seem. I was an emotional train wreck last week. I couldn't figure out why. I was crying about everything! When listening to the radio makes you cry, something has got to change. I was stressed out like nobody's business. I was overworked and underslept. I couldn't get a grip on anything around me, and it was taking a toll on me. But the extra hour today really made a difference. I slept all day and now feel refreshed and ready to takle another day.
Aside from the work and school this week, I'm looking forward to it! I get to hang out with the Soul Sister and Wife, and me and the BFF made some sweet plans for the week. It's been too long, and i'm finally at a place where i'm ready, and looking forward to hanging out with him. I missed him, that's for sure.
Things are good. Things were always good and will always be good. Because i really want them to be. Wow. I'm such a sap sometimes.
I think it's time for food chanel and nail painting. Maybe continue with my scarf. Gotta love it.
I've also been listening to the Cheers Theme Song on repeat for the past twenty minutes. Fucking Genius!
xox. our troubles are all the same. <3