May 17th, 2008
|12:01 pm - let's do some living after we die|
Love The Rolling Stones.
Wild Horses is going to be my death song.
This does not creep me out because it's so beautiful.
Hangovers are the worst.
The stomach pains and headaches.
Not cool. But it was totally worth it last night.
You know how sometimes you get drunk and end up doing something or saying something that you know you're going to regret the next day, but at the moment it seems like the right thing to do?
Why does alcohol do that??
They should make a drink that doesn't make you super horny and frisky. Hahah.
But when I woke up this morning, I was happy.
I wasn't kicking myself in the ass or beating myself up for my stupidities last night.
I actually ended up laughing. A lot.
Even with certain news this morning, I'm still laughing.
I think this speaks volume of how much I've grown.
I can laugh at my shinanigans and not feel bad.
I'm so over that shit, that now everything seems funny and good.
I can't take things seriously anymore because that takes too much effort.
It drains me of energy and life.
I become depressed and discouraged that things aren't working out the way I want them to.
Now, I can accept that things hardly ever go the way you want them to.
I'm not hung up on love anymore.
They say after you're first real heartbreak things get a lot easier.
And now I believe it. They also say that in a lifetime, your heart will get broken half a dozen times.
Before, this would have upset me a great deal.
Not so much anymore. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right? Cliche, but oh well.
We have to live with dissapointment, because it will always be there in some form or another.
The key is to accept it.
I don't what I've done, but something has changed. A good change that has liberated me.
I'm calm and collected. I still have moments of weakness, but they pass with relative ease, and it's easy to move on after.
I'm at a really good place in my life.
I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have are wonderful.
I couldn't imagine my life without them.
Relationships are all relative. And that's all I need.
This is getting really long. I could prolly go on for another page or two, but I think this will suffice.
Chin up, cheer up. It's that easy.
xox. in love with love.
Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Supertramp - Goodbye Stranger