July 16th, 2007
|01:42 am - questions, no answers|
Everything seems a little odd. A little disjointed. A little off color.
But I can't seem to put my finger on it. And i prolly never will.
I spend the good part of my evening doing arts and crafts.
I made two mirrors, which look awesome. Next step is to clean my room. Guh. Not going to happen any time soon. That's for sure. I have no motivation for cleaning. No motivation to shuffle through all the mess and clutter of a disorganized life. A disorganized mind.
I want to run. Empty out the past years, and get away from all my chaos.
But that's not going to happen. Until i can deal with it, i'm never going to get over it.
Apart from being emotionally crazy, summer is going swimmingly. Work is keeping me somewhat preoccupied, while friends are taking up the rest of the time.
Camping soon is getting me excited. Four days away, withouth a cell phone or a computer. Amazing. It's going to be a worthwile weekend.
Much love. I figure i better give it all away before it completely consumes me, and eats me from the inside out.
July 2nd, 2007
|08:54 pm - playing with fire|
get burned. it feels good.
canada day was a sweet success. it felt good.
getting dressed up for no reason and getting drunk in the afternoon and all throughout the evening makes for good times, lots of laughs, and a getaway from it all.
it feels like summer is slipping away from me. but then i remember that i've been on vacation for two months already, and that i have another two glorious months to soak up the sun and soak in the sin. how amazing.
my plans for the summer are evolving and getting crossed off my list. that makes me happy. i feel like im doing something with my time. with the freedom of long nights and warm days.
i wish it could be summer all the time.
xox. its all good.
Current Music: lou reed
June 13th, 2007
|10:23 pm - river styx!!!|
one more day, then i get to vist my BFF! i am going to pee my pants with excitment!!
im in a great mood. dancing always puts me in a good mood. no joke.
im feeling like i should.
i dont have anything to say.
save a horse ride a cowboy is the funniest song in the world.
people lose their shit over it, and that makes me really happy.
lets go dancing. and swooning.
this is a ramble of nothingness.
xox and all that junk.
May 29th, 2007
|12:41 pm - itch like a bitch|
my period of mourning is now over. time to snap back to reality... back to the things that really matter.
today is the first day of the rest of my life. lame and cliche as it might sound, i kinda believe it.
im taking on a better place. im leaving certain things behind. things that didn't fit with my life. things that weren't making life any easier.
so it's all good. it has to be.
because i don't want to waste anymore time. i have things to do, and places to see.
i'm taking it one day at a time, and making it count.
im totally over you. i might have said this before, but never really meant it.
now i have to mean it. its time.
and i feel that im in a good place in my life to follow through, and let you go.
im breathing a sigh of relief over the whole thing.
and laughing about it. because there is nothing else i can do.
i know what i have to do.
this should be quite the ride.
xox. we do what we like, and we like what we do. <3
Current Mood: contemplative
April 14th, 2007
|01:42 am - bitter betty|
i can't stop crying.
this week has totally kicked my ass, and it's finally caught up to me.
i tried to cheer myself up by watching friday the 13th part 2, in honor of my favorite day... it kinda helped, but only for an hour and a half.
now i'm left tired and upset, and completely unenthusiastic about everything.
i'm bitter about everything. i'm tired of trying to make others see the beauty in everything.
you think you're fat? fine, you're a cow. you think you're ugly? fine, you're a beast. you think no one will ever love you? fine, you'll die alone.
i hope you drown in botox and liquid foundation. go read your celebrity magazines and gossip about the latest fashions. shit on others who don't fit into your lame bubble of plastic and fake sense of beauty and style. live through the people in the magazine, but don't start bitching about your life when you have made no attempt to make it something more than a fake fantasy.
don't bitch to me, because i won't try and make it better. i'll agree with you and make you feel even worse. don't come fishing for compliments because i won't dish them out. you can bitch and moan all you want, but don't make me be the one to make you feel better.
how's that for bitter fucking betty?
xox. blah blah blah.
March 30th, 2007
|06:02 pm - summer style dancing|
Being hungover and not going to school is kind of a good thing.
I slept until 1:30 today, and when i woke up, it was blue and sunny outside.
I am so effing pumped for summer, it's hard to explain. The days are getting better and better, and life is getting better and better.
Went out last night, and just fucking danced my ass off and had a blast with my lady friends.
It's been too long with some of them, and I was happy to have them there, drinking and being just like we used to be.
Every once in a while, you make friends who will be there forever, no matter what happens.
Thoes girls will forever be my core friends. My friends who i can call up once a year, and it'll still be exactly the same as it was.
We've gone through too much shit together, and have had too many good times.
We know who we are when we're with each other, and that's a a very comforting feeling.
We bring out the best in each other, because we've never been fake.
How fucking beautiful!!!
And this song i'm listening to is pure gold. It puts me in the summer mood. Makes me want to move all the time.
Kinda dirty, kinda hot, totally dance worthy.
26 days until summer freedom. I can hardly contain myself.
I won't stop swooning.
xox. my life is all too perfect. <3
Current Mood: summer dance!
Current Music: The Roots - The Seed
March 29th, 2007
|02:19 pm - swoon|
summer is on it's way,
and i'm pumped!
i went on a long walk yesterday, and it felt so good.
music and sunglasses were all i needed.
totally worth the winter, just to have the first signs of spring in the air.
much love to mother nature, for keeping it great,
and never giving up.
circles are her life, and i'm envious.
xox. tractor time.
Current Music: birds chirping
March 21st, 2007
|12:33 am - to the max|
i should be sleeping.
but i can sleep when im dead.
March 14th, 2007
|08:08 am - stranger danger|
i don't like when people have sex on my couch.
not cool guys.
im out of it, and feeling kinda weird. my sleep is needed, and school is not in the cards this week.
how awful of me. this could be a disaster!
but im over it.
because im so classy.
xox. tarydactiles in my kitchen!
February 20th, 2007
|12:53 am - music to move you|
all in all, i'd say things are awesome.
because tonight i saw the weirdest thing on my walk home.
there were a whole bunch of big trucks lined up on the street.
they all had their lights on, and one lady looked like
she was looking up at the sky, waiting
for it to snow. it was so werid! then a huge yellow
machine was the the front of the line.
they we something to do with snowplowing
and all that stuff. but it was the weirdest thing to see on
a walk home at midnight. kinda creepy, and very exciting.
xox. its always a good call.
Current Mood: high