Tines Peens

one track mind

2009-07-10T01:24:26Z

Hello.
Long time no see.

I usually forget that this exists.
Reminds me of High School.
Maybe that's why I stay away? Hah.

Went out dancing on Friday night. AMAZING!
Matty played Born to Run, and I pretty much lost my shit.
Shannon and I got all sweaty on the dance floor.
Some guy in a white T-Shirt told me I was his fave dancer.
Obviously. ;)

The we went to Zak's and ate yummy food at 2am.
Good times all around.
This weekend should be a lot of fun.
BBQ tomorrow, something Saturday, BBQ Sunday.
Social butterfly.
If only I could get my energy back.

Anemia isn't as fun as it sounds. Haha.

Well that's it for me.
I have some work to do.
First unofficial band meeting/practice tomorrow.
Gotta be in tip top condition.

xox. love and other indoor(outdoor?) sports.

dino buddies

2009-04-21T01:29:33Z

Booked camping last night, which means I have something awesome to look forward to!!
This makes for one happy camper ;)

Weekend was super spectacular!
Lyns came down and we drank and watched Degrassi Junior High and talked about penises.
What a gem.

xox. looking for fun.

Dr. Pepper

2009-04-08T20:58:22Z

I am drinking Dr. Pepper right now, and I am writing to say how much I love it!
I haven't had a DP in AGES, so when I saw one today, I just couldn't resist.
And let me tell you... BEST DECISION EVER!
I actually can't believe how good it is! I'm happily surprised.
I'm also wearing DP lipsmackers :)

Hmmmmm other than that, meh. Same old I suppose.
Last weekend I saw Soul Jazz Orchestra. They were awesome!
A great dance fest, and then a hilarious evening with the ladies in Jay's bed.... hah.

You know when you like a band forever, and then you finally get to see them?
Weakerthans. Total disapointment.
Or maybe it's the fact that I liked them in High School, and now that's what I associate them with.
Either way, they were boring.
Waste of 25 bux.
At least I got to see Pete!

Now New Kids, there's a different story.... SWOON!

xox. i'm hanging tough.

velcroshoes @ 2009-04-03T19:19:00

2009-04-03T23:18:47Z

Remember LiveJournal???

I don't. Hardly.

I used to love checking to see if my friends updated or posted pictures.... Now with Facebook, the excitement is gone.
Is anyone else kinds sick of Facebook?
It's too "stalker in training" and that freaks me out a little.
At least with LJ you have to be a little more creative with your posts. AKA make a post! Instead of lurking.

Shucks and sighs.

So what's new... Not a whole lot.
Still working at the pharmacy, which is proving to be both fun and annoying.
I love most of the people I work with, but am annoyed with the elderly and the sick.
At least I get to be in the actual pharmacy now, which breaks up the usual routine. A welcome change.

I was thinking of going back to school in September, but then realized that I really don't want to. I'm content working full time, making decent money, and not having to worry about papers, due dates or tuition bills.
I think I'll stick to it a bit longer, until I snap at an old lady and they fire me, or give out the wrong medication and kill someone... either or. :)

Random note.... Maddy is really cute. How cute? This cute.

xox. and i'm out.

twizzlers & laundry

2008-05-28T01:50:00Z

Summer is officially in full swing, and somehow I'm not feeling it.
I think the combination of unsatisfactory weather days and working non stop has something to do with it.

My plan for the summer was to work only a few days a week, and spend the rest of my time being awesome and exploring the city.
Well as I have learned time and time again, things never work out the way you want them too.
This is fine. I will make up for it in 8 weeks, with the most extensive sightseeing and beach laying I can muster!
I can't believe that in only 8 weeks I will be in Italy, once again. This makes me swoon!

So yesterday at work proved to me why I need to get out of there!
I was so scared to accept a new job and move on because I was so comfortable.
But now i realize that this job is TOO comfortable, and there is no excitement, no fun, no challenge, no future.
I am sick of the people, the work, the drama, the shit that goes on.
It is definetly time to move on and move forward.
I am really looking forward to my meeting with Peter. I figure that I'll take the job and try it out for a year.
What's a year? I'll be getting experience, and if I don't like it, I'll know for sure. I won't be able to shit on myself for not going after something and not trying it.
So bring it on! I am looking forward to this A LOT! I NEED a change. It's at the point, that if I have to stay at my job for longer than the 21st of July, I will murder someone. And that is not a good thing. Hahah.

I will continue working for peanuts and continue to go out 3 days a week with the people I love, because this summer is mine!
I am not going to let it slip away from me. And so far, Pam and I have managed to have a little too much fun. ;)

Gotta love it.
xox. i'm in the mood.

let's do some living after we die

2008-05-17T16:18:45Z

Love The Rolling Stones.
Wild Horses is going to be my death song.
This does not creep me out because it's so beautiful.

Hangovers are the worst.
The stomach pains and headaches.
Not cool. But it was totally worth it last night.

You know how sometimes you get drunk and end up doing something or saying something that you know you're going to regret the next day, but at the moment it seems like the right thing to do?
Why does alcohol do that??
They should make a drink that doesn't make you super horny and frisky. Hahah.
But when I woke up this morning, I was happy.
I wasn't kicking myself in the ass or beating myself up for my stupidities last night.
I actually ended up laughing. A lot.

Even with certain news this morning, I'm still laughing.
I think this speaks volume of how much I've grown.
I can laugh at my shinanigans and not feel bad.
I'm so over that shit, that now everything seems funny and good.
I can't take things seriously anymore because that takes too much effort.
It drains me of energy and life.
I become depressed and discouraged that things aren't working out the way I want them to.
Now, I can accept that things hardly ever go the way you want them to.

I'm not hung up on love anymore.
They say after you're first real heartbreak things get a lot easier.
And now I believe it. They also say that in a lifetime, your heart will get broken half a dozen times.
Before, this would have upset me a great deal.
Not so much anymore. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, right? Cliche, but oh well.
We have to live with dissapointment, because it will always be there in some form or another.
The key is to accept it.

I don't what I've done, but something has changed. A good change that has liberated me.
I'm calm and collected. I still have moments of weakness, but they pass with relative ease, and it's easy to move on after.
I'm at a really good place in my life.
I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have are wonderful.
I couldn't imagine my life without them.
Relationships are all relative. And that's all I need.

This is getting really long. I could prolly go on for another page or two, but I think this will suffice.
Chin up, cheer up. It's that easy.

xox. in love with love.

guilty of being awesome

2008-05-14T18:41:15Z

Colin James is my little guilty pleasure. Haha.
I know he's kind of lame, but there is always great potential for sing-alongs and dancing.
In my book, that is always a good thing.

I am finally starting to get over my nasty little cold / flu. There is nothing more annoying than being sick, especially in the summer.

My new bed arrived last night, and let me tell you, it is heaven!
I have never had such a wonderful sleep before.
I got the kind with memory foam. No joke, AMAZING!

I am finding pleasure in all the small things these days. My new mattress, a new set of colorful pens, the smell of laundry hanging outside... all the things you kinda forget about.

My new view on life and love is proving to be one of the easiest things to do. Keeping everything simple used to seem so hard to do because we always made it complicated. But i'm so sick of the complex that I'm just kindof ignoring it.

My new philosophy is a mix of existentialism and teachings from Phillippe Gaulier. Even though I have no interest in acting or theatre, his teachings can be applied in everyday life, and I am finding his little bits of wisdom greatly appreciated.

Life is an absured place. Always. Accept it and live your life with honesty, regardless of what happens. It's ok to be sad and angry, but there is no dignity in selling your pain.
So this is my new philisophy, and so far it's been working really well. I've been doing lots of reading on existentialism, and it really seems to fit my lifestyle.

Time to dress and be semi-productive.

xox. it's a good thing.

love hard

2008-05-10T02:20:12Z

Wow. Where does the time go??
I always forget about LJ, but I'm going to bring it back. Haha.

Big news....
I GRADUATED COLLEGE!!!!
Yes my dear friends, I am officially a college graduate with an entire summer ahead of me. I am beyond excited, and beyond proud of myself. I knew I could do it, but with the failure of Uni always in the back of my head, I had my doubts. Oh well, doesn't matter know, because I am FREE!

I feel an incredible weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I can finally breathe.
Well almost. I came down with a nasty cold that is blocking my nasal cavites with mucus. Hahaha. So close.

I spent and amazing week in Toronto with Holly, and it was absolutly incredible. There is nothing like getting away, and taking some time for you.
The time went by without notice, and I let the world go on without me.

Nothing is as beautiful than the lack of time.

I hope everyone else is enjoying their days, and letting the sun bring a little warmth into your hearts.
My black heart isn't so black anymore, and it feels wonderful.

xox. love, and other indoor sports.

rings and things

2007-11-12T05:18:56Z

I bought two new rings, and i really love them. Instead of clothes, i but rings.
I'm stoaked on Christmas vacation. Three weeks of food and family and no school. Nothing wrong with that.
Three weeks left in this semester, and I couldn't be happier. I'm really looking forward to getting all this out of the way, and ringing in the new year free of stress from school. Ready to start my final semester of post-secondary.
I was thinking about taking the Intro to Trades program in a couple of years, once I've felt out my Travel stuff.
The idea of working with my hands is really appealing...
So professional masturbater, here i come. Haha.
Hope everyone can see the silver lining in this season of grey skies and short days.

xox. getter done.

talking sausages

2007-11-05T00:59:48Z

Wow. I miss the LJ. Something about it. Good times.

Things are going pretty good over here. School and work are taking up 95% of my time these days. Last week was a killer, and this week is going to be equally as draining, but whatevs. I napped allll day today is preparation for the coming work week.

I guess things are never as bad as they seem. I was an emotional train wreck last week. I couldn't figure out why. I was crying about everything! When listening to the radio makes you cry, something has got to change. I was stressed out like nobody's business. I was overworked and underslept. I couldn't get a grip on anything around me, and it was taking a toll on me. But the extra hour today really made a difference. I slept all day and now feel refreshed and ready to takle another day.

Aside from the work and school this week, I'm looking forward to it! I get to hang out with the Soul Sister and Wife, and me and the BFF made some sweet plans for the week. It's been too long, and i'm finally at a place where i'm ready, and looking forward to hanging out with him. I missed him, that's for sure.

Things are good. Things were always good and will always be good. Because i really want them to be. Wow. I'm such a sap sometimes.

I think it's time for food chanel and nail painting. Maybe continue with my scarf. Gotta love it.

I've also been listening to the Cheers Theme Song on repeat for the past twenty minutes. Fucking Genius!

xox. our troubles are all the same. <3

questions, no answers

2007-07-16T05:50:34Z

Everything seems a little odd. A little disjointed. A little off color.
But I can't seem to put my finger on it. And i prolly never will.

I spend the good part of my evening doing arts and crafts.
I made two mirrors, which look awesome. Next step is to clean my room. Guh. Not going to happen any time soon. That's for sure. I have no motivation for cleaning. No motivation to shuffle through all the mess and clutter of a disorganized life. A disorganized mind.

I want to run. Empty out the past years, and get away from all my chaos.
But that's not going to happen. Until i can deal with it, i'm never going to get over it.

Apart from being emotionally crazy, summer is going swimmingly. Work is keeping me somewhat preoccupied, while friends are taking up the rest of the time.
Camping soon is getting me excited. Four days away, withouth a cell phone or a computer. Amazing. It's going to be a worthwile weekend.

Much love. I figure i better give it all away before it completely consumes me, and eats me from the inside out.
xox.

playing with fire

2007-07-03T00:59:35Z

get burned. it feels good.

canada day was a sweet success. it felt good.
getting dressed up for no reason and getting drunk in the afternoon and all throughout the evening makes for good times, lots of laughs, and a getaway from it all.

it feels like summer is slipping away from me. but then i remember that i've been on vacation for two months already, and that i have another two glorious months to soak up the sun and soak in the sin. how amazing.

my plans for the summer are evolving and getting crossed off my list. that makes me happy. i feel like im doing something with my time. with the freedom of long nights and warm days.

i wish it could be summer all the time.
xox. its all good.

river styx!!!

2007-06-14T02:25:18Z

eff yeah!

one more day, then i get to vist my BFF! i am going to pee my pants with excitment!!
im in a great mood. dancing always puts me in a good mood. no joke.
im awesome.
im feeling like i should.

i dont have anything to say.

save a horse ride a cowboy is the funniest song in the world.
people lose their shit over it, and that makes me really happy.

lets go dancing. and swooning.

this is a ramble of nothingness.
xox and all that junk.

itch like a bitch

2007-05-29T16:49:36Z

my period of mourning is now over. time to snap back to reality... back to the things that really matter.
today is the first day of the rest of my life. lame and cliche as it might sound, i kinda believe it.
im taking on a better place. im leaving certain things behind. things that didn't fit with my life. things that weren't making life any easier.
so it's all good. it has to be.
because i don't want to waste anymore time. i have things to do, and places to see.
i'm taking it one day at a time, and making it count.
im totally over you. i might have said this before, but never really meant it.
now i have to mean it. its time.
and i feel that im in a good place in my life to follow through, and let you go.
im breathing a sigh of relief over the whole thing.
and laughing about it. because there is nothing else i can do.
i know what i have to do.
this should be quite the ride.

xox. we do what we like, and we like what we do. <3

bitter betty

2007-04-14T05:54:31Z

i can't stop crying.

this week has totally kicked my ass, and it's finally caught up to me.
i tried to cheer myself up by watching friday the 13th part 2, in honor of my favorite day... it kinda helped, but only for an hour and a half.
now i'm left tired and upset, and completely unenthusiastic about everything.

i'm bitter about everything. i'm tired of trying to make others see the beauty in everything.
you think you're fat? fine, you're a cow. you think you're ugly? fine, you're a beast. you think no one will ever love you? fine, you'll die alone.

i hope you drown in botox and liquid foundation. go read your celebrity magazines and gossip about the latest fashions. shit on others who don't fit into your lame bubble of plastic and fake sense of beauty and style. live through the people in the magazine, but don't start bitching about your life when you have made no attempt to make it something more than a fake fantasy.

don't bitch to me, because i won't try and make it better. i'll agree with you and make you feel even worse. don't come fishing for compliments because i won't dish them out. you can bitch and moan all you want, but don't make me be the one to make you feel better.

how's that for bitter fucking betty?

xox. blah blah blah.

summer style dancing

2007-03-30T22:11:47Z

Being hungover and not going to school is kind of a good thing.
I slept until 1:30 today, and when i woke up, it was blue and sunny outside.

I am so effing pumped for summer, it's hard to explain. The days are getting better and better, and life is getting better and better.
Went out last night, and just fucking danced my ass off and had a blast with my lady friends.
It's been too long with some of them, and I was happy to have them there, drinking and being just like we used to be.

Every once in a while, you make friends who will be there forever, no matter what happens.
Thoes girls will forever be my core friends. My friends who i can call up once a year, and it'll still be exactly the same as it was.
We've gone through too much shit together, and have had too many good times.
We know who we are when we're with each other, and that's a a very comforting feeling.
We bring out the best in each other, because we've never been fake.
How fucking beautiful!!!

And this song i'm listening to is pure gold. It puts me in the summer mood. Makes me want to move all the time.
Kinda dirty, kinda hot, totally dance worthy.

26 days until summer freedom. I can hardly contain myself.
I won't stop swooning.

xox. my life is all too perfect. <3

swoon

2007-03-29T18:22:39Z

summer is on it's way,
and i'm pumped!

i went on a long walk yesterday, and it felt so good.
music and sunglasses were all i needed.
totally worth the winter, just to have the first signs of spring in the air.

much love to mother nature, for keeping it great,
and never giving up.
circles are her life, and i'm envious.

xox. tractor time.

to the max

2007-03-21T04:34:21Z

i should be sleeping.

but i can sleep when im dead.

stranger danger

2007-03-14T12:10:20Z

i don't like when people have sex on my couch.
not cool guys.
hahahaha.

im out of it, and feeling kinda weird. my sleep is needed, and school is not in the cards this week.
how awful of me. this could be a disaster!
but im over it.

because im so classy.

xox. tarydactiles in my kitchen!

music to move you

2007-02-20T05:57:01Z

all in all, i'd say things are awesome.

because tonight i saw the weirdest thing on my walk home.
there were a whole bunch of big trucks lined up on the street.
they all had their lights on, and one lady looked like
she was looking up at the sky, waiting
for it to snow. it was so werid! then a huge yellow
machine was the the front of the line.
they we something to do with snowplowing
and all that stuff. but it was the weirdest thing to see on
a walk home at midnight. kinda creepy, and very exciting.

xox. its always a good call.

dancing because i can

2007-01-11T02:07:05Z

I am falling in love.
And I won't ever be left with a broken heart.
Let me be your Mary.

xox. you're the boss.

i'm in the heat

2007-01-03T03:40:30Z

Happy 2007 everyone!

Another year gone, and a new one has taken it's place. I can't really sum up 2006 because I don't remember much of what happend.
But i do know that the last weekend of 2006 was amazing, and thats all that really matters.

New Years eve was so awesome this year. Made me more than happy.
Highlights:
+a quarter of pot
+mikey of whiskey
+adevntures in the freezing rain
+new years eve kisses
+randoms from high school
+awesome house party
+redicoulous people
+dancing
+joel baskin(hahahah)
+more adevnture walks
+more pot
+passing out at 6am

I LOVED IT. I'm still on a high from the awesome weekend. Let's hope the year is a reflection of this.

MT WHATEVER.

xox. disco balls.

toasty

2006-12-31T02:03:13Z

hahahahaha.

life is so funny.

so are we. low-key. makes me happy.

i like the feel of the keyboard on my fingers. i also love water.
pot. love.

xox. poo.

winter woes

2006-12-22T18:28:47Z

I woke up this morning feeling bad.
I was so happy to sleep in, but now I'm really sad. I don't want to leave my house at all today, and I don't really want to see anyone. I want to stay in my room listening to music and hanging up pictures. I just feel shitty.
It's funny how one small, unimportant, insignificant thing can turn your mood in a second.

Last night was fun. I had fun just hanging out and making crafts, and eating food, and smoking ciggies. So why am I feeling so unhappy right now? Today was supposed to be MY day, and now i just don't care. If i didn't need ciggies, I wouldnt leave my house at all.
why does it always happen like this? why do i do this to myself. i seriously hate boys, and girls, and freinds who dont care, and people who have plans, and sad music, and the color black.
i hate them so much i love them. let me crawl into my perfect darkness and wake up when i can smoke a joint and lay on the beach. when i can spend my days away from the people i love to hate.

xox. you can't write me off, and you don't turn me on.

six days with MT

2006-12-02T03:51:11Z

Wow.

I just did one of the best things I've ever done, and I'm so happy with myself.
Vancouver was so gorgeous. One of the very first things I did was put my hands in the Pacific Ocean. I was thrilled. I am so happy I decided to go through with this, and do something so unlike me. Awesome Possom.

No Pictures of Vancouver, because I forgot about the camera. Also, pictures don't do justice to the beauty of that place.
But I did take some pics along the way. Total Adventure. <3333

Outside Golden BC

My Taxi Driver. What a Guy.

Alberta welcomed us with open arms. And some mountain goats that I didn't get a picture of.

Banff. I fell in Love.

Pictures don't really do jsutice to awesome-ness of this place. But It was worth a try.

The Sunrise outside of Swift Current Saskatchewan. It was so pretty. The night before it was like a blizzard outside. Canada is so finiky with it's weather.

It looked like three candles.

Mike laughing about nothing. That was the entire trip. Hah.

Mike falling alseep at the wheel! How we survived, I'll never know.

Me. Obviously.

Entering Manitoba. Mike sped up, so my picture is not as nice as I wanted. Pew.

Right outside of Thunder Bay. The view was spectacular for 5 hours straight.

Me after 5 days in a car. I look a little weird. Haha. But spirits are high.

Lake Superior. It was a beautiful day, and the waves were really crazy that day. Totally awesome.

It was seriously such a good trip. I am more in love with Ben Folds than ever now. Haha. Well worth it.

xox. schyeah. shut up.